Halloween was fun. The weather stayed gorgeous so we didn’t have to trick or treat in the snow (seriously, we’ve done it some years) This year C went with a friend – yes my 15 year old still trick or treats, no I don’t even care if you think that’s ‘okay’ or not. He enjoys it and his happiness means more to me than some random online people. C dressed up as Gingy (the gingerbread man from Shrek) and had a blast. Mister was The Grim Reaper, Blue was a demon, Lady Girl was a witch and Little Miss was a ghost. We lucked out and found the boys’ costumes at goodwill (in mint condition) and the girls re-used old handmade costumes that we added new colours and accessories to. They were super cute. This year Little Miss was just over 2, so it was her first year out of the stroller, walking up to houses. She made it over half way before needing to be put in the stroller. She was absolutely adorable with her little “trick or treeaat” and “thank goo” <3
How was your Halloween?
Sleep, a theme from Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop
“Does she sleep through the night?” this is one of the first questions all parents get when they have babies. At first you nervously giggle and look around. “um.. no..not quite” that question sticks with you. Later that night as you’re awake feeding and changing a baby for the 100th time that night you wonder if all the other babies are sleeping yet (they aren’t) Should yours be? Are you failing at parenting already? What if they never sleep through the night? What if you never sleep through the night? These questions start to haunt you.
Of course us been there/done that moms don’t seem worried when it comes to second plus babies. Why? Because we know. We know there will come a time when they’ll sleep through the night. When they won’t wake and look for you. Even later on when they won’t want just one more story or cuddle. When they happily go up to bed on their own. That one day you’ll read them their last bedtime story, or that it will be the last night they hop in your bed for a cuddle, or the last time they wake in the night reaching for you. Only the kicker is you won’t know it’s the last time, so you won’t know to take it all in to memory. No matter how many kids you have it just hits you one day that it’s been a while since your little has woken up looking for you. And it makes you a little sad. (Yes, really)
Last week when we were all sick Lady Girl crawled in our bed. It’s been a long time since I’ve found her there. I got to stroke her hair while she slept and it was bittersweet. I missed having her crawl into our bed, knowing I’d wake up at 2am and she’d be there, no matter when or where she fell asleep the night before. Little Miss was also up more often than normal. While she was sick she had zero appetite, so of course she was nursing like a newborn, which means she wanted to nurse almost all night (one night I saw every hour on the clock) at the time I was so done. I needed sleep that wasn’t constantly broken up. But now that she’s back to her normal routine and not waking up as often for night nursing I find I’m missing it again.
I don’t want to be that mom. The one telling you to enjoy it in the moment because you’ll miss it, because I know that in the moment of sleeplessness it’s really hard to enjoy it. It’s really hard to remember that one day you will miss it. You have every single right to dislike it in the moment. I just want you to know that as much as you don’t think there’s an end in sight, there is one there somewhere. And it will hit you hard when it happens.
One morning I was getting dressed in my room while Lady Girl was in the bathroom starting to brush her teeth. I could hear her singing away to her newest favourite song “girlfriend” –Avril Lavigne, and I had stop myself from laughing when I heard her break out in the little mama remix, but instead of “Hey hey you you I could be your girlfriend, I could be your girl Lil Mama be your girlfriend” she sang “Hey hey you I don’t want to be your girlfriend, it’s ok little mama be your girlfriend’
To this day that is still how she sings it. I don’t have the heart to tell her the difference.
This is going to sound bad to anyone that hasn’t experienced it, but those of you that have will totally get it; I love toddler nursing.
Don’t get me wrong, newborn / baby nursing is an awesome bonding experience, but it’s all about a need for nutrition. For the baby, nursing at that age is just a means to get that nutrition. Something their instincts tell them to do. Sure, there’s still the cuddling and touching need, but on the whole it’s nutrition.
As they become toddlers though, it’s about way more. It’s nutrition mixed with comfort and cuddling.
When Lady Girl is blissfully nursing, she looks right at me (when she’s not busy trying to look at everything else) for that moment it’s just the two of us. And you know she wants to smile. Her face is lit up. Then she points to her eye, then her chest, then at me (it’s something Hubby started when C was little, to say I love you, that he’s done with all the kids)
It just melts my heart.
All the cracked nipples, thrush, bad latches, growth spurts and leaking are worth it in those moments.
Sure, i could do without the nursing aerobics that come with nursing a toddler, but those moments? I’m going to be sad to see them go.