Today has been hard.
It’s been 7 years since I joined the club. The one no one wants to join even though we all know it’s inevitable. I just hadn’t been prepared to join it as early as I did. Having me young meant I should have had years before losing my mom. Before becoming part of the motherless daughter club. Instead she left this world shortly after I had my first daughter. Yes, I’m grateful she got to know my boys, but now I’m also raising two girls without the guidance off a mother. I wish she had gotten to see the kids growing up. She’d love the different personalities they have.
As hard as today is I still have something to be thankful for. Today, I’m thankful for the time I had with her. For the memories I have. For those close to me who listened to me go on and on about my mom today, for those who kept me in their thoughts and sent me positive energy/prayers. For those who helped me get to her funeral when I never thought I’d make it.